A memoir that reads like a thriller, but hits closer to home than you'd imagine.
Lynn grew up believing her father was just another undercover narcotics agent in Miami. But when he disappeared one night without a backward glance, her world began to unravel. The truth came three years later: her father was in prison for drug smuggling, and by then, Lynn had fallen into the same dangerous trap.
From age eighteen to twenty-one, Lynn spiraled through addiction and despair. The first time she used cocaine was with her father. The last time was nearly the end of her. In those three short years, she lost everything—her friends, her family, her sense of self. She stood at the crossroads where countless children of addicts find themselves: choose the person who shares your blood, or choose your own life.
This isn't just another addiction memoir. It's a raw, unflinching look at the complex bonds that tie families together, even when those bonds are forged in darkness. Lynn's story resonates because it's real, messy, and complicated. There are no easy answers, no clean solutions—just the brutal honesty of what it takes to break free from the cycle that threatens to consume you.
Winner of the National Indie Excellence Award and Eric Hoffer Book Award Grand Prize Shortlist, this memoir reminds us that sometimes the hardest thing you'll ever do is choose yourself. Whether you're dealing with your own addiction, loving someone who is, or simply trying to understand the complicated nature of family, Lynn's journey offers hope without sugarcoating the struggle. This is the story of how one daughter found the strength to say, "Not me. Not anymore."
